But where? That is the question.
Leaving for Disney tomorrow, met with Dr Soo yesterday. Both are interesting topics so i'm nit sure which one to discuss first.
Theres always fun to discuss a Disney adventure. We are leaving tomorrow afternoon really looking forward to it. Even the travel will be fun, Mitchell is the travel expert for Reese since he flew once about 12 years ago.
Not sure where to go next with this.
Dr Soo is recommending surgery on the Saturday we come back from our trip. This is the surgery where they keep you awake so they can monitor the progress as they perform their process. Kinda intimidating.
He emphasized the fact that this thing doubles in size each month if left untreated, so we will be doing some treatment. Did i mention i'll be awake during the treatment? Yikes
Friday, October 18, 2013
Saturday, October 12, 2013
Cancer is a Savage
The cancer that eats at a person comes in all shapes and forms.
The physical manifestation can be painful or might not have any sensation at all. Sometimes it comes and goes with the weather. That is all as i would expect a savage to show itself. Weak and strong at the same time, surprising one for no reason other than an ability to show itself as an opportunity. No intent is needed for the physical showing, believe me it just happens.
The rest of the savage cancer is emotional, this is the one that hangs out, wants to cozy up and hung out. It knows when you are at your most vulnerable and hangs on tighter then because that is when the savage gets the most life force from you. What do you do? Hang on tight is all. This can be bumpy. The trick for me come from a Zen practice called Practicde. This simply means not resisting. Acknowledge it is there, define it, but don't fight it, let it traverse your heart and mind like a breeze through your spring window shade. No it is not easy, no i cannot do it on desire, but the practice is what you need.
Here's the low down!
10mm growth on 2 dimensions. It looks as if another surgery will be the best option. This is not certain yet, the surgeon will be the deciding factor, but from the oncologist visit on friday he was leaning toward it and expected the surgeon to follw suit.
I do not want radiation. I do not want infusion. Luckily both of these options are beneath surgery as an option.
Oh my boys, my boys.....
Can i get a little Practicde!
I have been feeling some things change in my physical attributes over the last 3 + weeks or so, for better or worse, who knows, my vision has changed, my ability to read has changed, finding words has changed, and More!! My fingers crossed to the fact that one more MRI before surgery shows pseudoprogression is the issue, not progression. I see this as a real viable option, but the MRI would have to be but off until just before surgery.
I think i have more to say but imonna stop for now post back and i'll catch ya latter.
love yall
Jeff
The physical manifestation can be painful or might not have any sensation at all. Sometimes it comes and goes with the weather. That is all as i would expect a savage to show itself. Weak and strong at the same time, surprising one for no reason other than an ability to show itself as an opportunity. No intent is needed for the physical showing, believe me it just happens.
The rest of the savage cancer is emotional, this is the one that hangs out, wants to cozy up and hung out. It knows when you are at your most vulnerable and hangs on tighter then because that is when the savage gets the most life force from you. What do you do? Hang on tight is all. This can be bumpy. The trick for me come from a Zen practice called Practicde. This simply means not resisting. Acknowledge it is there, define it, but don't fight it, let it traverse your heart and mind like a breeze through your spring window shade. No it is not easy, no i cannot do it on desire, but the practice is what you need.
10mm growth on 2 dimensions. It looks as if another surgery will be the best option. This is not certain yet, the surgeon will be the deciding factor, but from the oncologist visit on friday he was leaning toward it and expected the surgeon to follw suit.
I do not want radiation. I do not want infusion. Luckily both of these options are beneath surgery as an option.
Oh my boys, my boys.....
Can i get a little Practicde!
I have been feeling some things change in my physical attributes over the last 3 + weeks or so, for better or worse, who knows, my vision has changed, my ability to read has changed, finding words has changed, and More!! My fingers crossed to the fact that one more MRI before surgery shows pseudoprogression is the issue, not progression. I see this as a real viable option, but the MRI would have to be but off until just before surgery.
I think i have more to say but imonna stop for now post back and i'll catch ya latter.
love yall
Jeff
Monday, October 7, 2013
Back in the day....
I remember back in 1995 i moved from San Diego to a city called Melbourne, FL. For reasons that i would like to keep discreet it was the best thing for me at that time, it's what some people would call a Geographic. In this context a geographic has a very specific meaning.
When I first moved out there i had detroit leftover in me, young, thuggish, recreational drug user all kinds of nonsense. I was a pressman by trade and was lucky enough to be able to find work running a printing press just about anywhere. To make me double lucky i found work at a small print shop at i will call EP.
At the time it was just another paycheck and i could leave at any time. But over the course of my first year at this run of the mill printshop something began to change. I began to notice that the owner and her husband were genuinely good people. They had a concern for my well being and i wasn't sure why.
One day it dawned on me that the concern they had wasn't for me necessarily, they were just being themselves, Good People.
The reason i am bringing this up is because after 10 years we are going to be in their neighborhood and i am very excited to introduce them to my family and show off my beautiful wife and kids. I don't think i would be here with B, M, and R with if it weren't for the example that F and S showed me. I feel like i owe them a lot and for this i thank them.
When I first moved out there i had detroit leftover in me, young, thuggish, recreational drug user all kinds of nonsense. I was a pressman by trade and was lucky enough to be able to find work running a printing press just about anywhere. To make me double lucky i found work at a small print shop at i will call EP.
At the time it was just another paycheck and i could leave at any time. But over the course of my first year at this run of the mill printshop something began to change. I began to notice that the owner and her husband were genuinely good people. They had a concern for my well being and i wasn't sure why.
One day it dawned on me that the concern they had wasn't for me necessarily, they were just being themselves, Good People.
The reason i am bringing this up is because after 10 years we are going to be in their neighborhood and i am very excited to introduce them to my family and show off my beautiful wife and kids. I don't think i would be here with B, M, and R with if it weren't for the example that F and S showed me. I feel like i owe them a lot and for this i thank them.
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